Day 336 - Revirginizing

This whirlwind of a year has surely taken a toll on my blog, and my energy. It's amazing how the lack of exertion actually makes you feel more sluggish. My lack of exertion hit me hard this morning. Coupled with the adrenaline crash from finally passing the Real Estate State Board on the 28th and signing with a Broker on the 29th (Century 21 Shaw Realty), I can clearly physically feel how unhealthy my body is, and how weak my muscles are, and how drained I am.

Today is December 1st, 2012. I blogged almost every day from January until around April/May when we sold our house. I lost weight. I felt healthy and strong. I had TONS of energy. And then, someone took my Twenty. No, let me rephrase that: I gave away my Twenty.

As a wife and a mother, giving is a natural concept. It's built into my DNA. It's my life source. Maybe that's why this blog fizzled. I wasn't designed to take.

Maybe I should change the name of the Blog to "Giving Back Twenty" - Win Win, right?

I'm going to go put my sneakers on right now and jump on the treadmill, because if I don't do it right at this very minute, I will find something else in this house that "needs" my attention. brb.

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......ten minutes later. Experiencing technical difficulties. Grey's Anatomy Season 9 is not on Netflix and the ABC app is missing the first 2 episodes. I tried reaching someone to borrow their HULU account, but she's in Vegas and it's 8am there. She probably just went to bed. No one said this was easy.

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No luck. I settled for picking up at the 3rd episode of Season 9 and tracked two leisurely 15 minute miles. First time on the treadmill since, well, I can't even remember.

One of the characters on Grey's used the term "revirginizing" after regretting her decision to give her virginity away. I can relate to that. I feel like I have given something up to external life forces, who, in return, seized total control of and monopolized my time for the past 6 months. I think today is the day that I "reTwentizize" and forget the past 6 months ever happened. New house, new career. That was yesterday. Today I begin to move forward again. Join me.